As I rushed around...
Tuesday, February 13, 2007 at 12:39PM Yesterday, as i buzzed around town picking up kids and meds, cleaning up vomit, and meeting people coming and going I had time to really make an inventory because I have realized that my life (for quite some time now- 23 years or so) has been fairly unmanagable. Overcommitted, tired, and often burdensome. I'm in the process of making some lifestyle changes. As Rob Bell would say, I am taking "Super Matt" out back to shoot him. This is a tough thing for me to do but I've come to realize that I'm doing lots of things to chase after my own image of what a i should do to please God. I'm saying no to little projects and a few big ones and greeting the import of others reactions to that little word. I'm trying to say "no" with grace and yet without any other reason than the fact that I have to slow down. I'm often flattered into disobedience by words such as "I don't think we can do this without you." As soon a someone says something like that I melt into a puddle and the morph back into "super matt" which is called-- well--- Sin. Anytime we disobey God it's sin even if what we are doing is a "good" deed. It's still disobedience and that = sin. So I'm a weak sinner that believes people when they say i'm indespensible. Lord Jesus Christ Son of God have mercy on me. The one that believes that I alone am uniquely qualified to do what I do. I rebuke it.
I'm going to work at LifeWay, love and encourage Bluegrass Baptist through this time of transition, and minister to my family. That's the plan...
Reader Comments (3)
Thank you for considering me as an important part of your vision. After consideration and realization that God has orchestrated my time, I will have to say not. Not because I don't want to help, but because if I say yes to you, I have to say no to that which God is calling, and has called me to do.
There you go!
Wanda
That's incredible. Thanks!
Learn about the dream He has for you and the 'border bullies' that will keep you from that dream.
The 'border bullies' appear in many forms - especially people who know us best and think they know the right thing for us.
After nearly 27 years of leading music and worship, I am not. I am learning in the quietness of being a participant of worship and not a leader of worship. I am learning to turn off the 'critical-that's-not-how-I-would-do-it' mode and listen.
He has me in training for a new position that I have been fighting and struggling. Like our brothers in the Old Testament, I am ill-equipped and the wrong person for the job. But He has called me.
Sometimes a soft, 'No, thank you' must suffice. Then let it go.
You'll feel lost with the sudden freedom of 'time'. Love your wife, spend quantity time with your children, and be willing to listen more intently.
He'll answer.