survived the week

difficult time this week but God's grace has been sufficient.

i've found shadows and corners every day to weep. after each blubber session i've had the same feeling that accompanies a shower after a long day.  

I've rededicated myself to writing.  On the way back from the funeral my mind was going a million miles an hour thinking of ideas and stories.  I hunger to write things that I've hesitated to write... to not waste my energy on writing simply on demand... i'm going to write and i'm going to write with courage and faith. i will write as an act of worship and i resolve to write difficult things. Not simply spitting out the same stuff.

 all these thoughts occured to me as i silently drove and prayed...

 i don't want to drivel out the same old stuff. Danny's death reminded off the vapor aspect of life. i want to live in the moment.

This week has also birth a new intolerance that i'm trying to keep at bay at least for the time being. when i saw my friend's body lowered into the ground I felt such an intolerance for pettyness and frivolity, religious politics and graceless concrete churches...

I must go to bed and I haven't even started...

Darlene is in Fort Worth so I must be on my game tomorrow morning.

Lord, have mercy-- move me-- i thank you for thorns...

Comments

[~m2~]

matt, you have been through such a trial and just when the light is breaking, another one begins. i am praying for your continued strength to bear it all up.

it is for the greater glory.

peace be with you.

[derick]

In 2nd Corinthians, Paul writes that God says, "My Grace is Sufficient for You" -- He then goes on to write a verse that I claim as my life-verse, and I give it to you for encouragement ...

"Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses; for Christ's sake. For when I am weak - THEN am I strong."
2 Corinthians 12:10 (KJV)

You are in my prayers ...