undignified

there is no dignity in my life without God. i can be the most sarcastic, doubting, belligerent, bumbling, unmanageable creature outside of God's grace. I am reminded of this as i prayed today, as I listened to myself- my well-cloaked negotiations and bargains I made with the Lord. I hear Him say,

"Wait a second, Matt, I don't negotiate your life. I am not a string puppet to manipulate and control. I am much, much, stronger and higher than your schemes and dreams. I must not jump on your little wagon. You must jump on mine. I am not interested in joining the Matt Tullos bulk email list. I hereby unsubscribe to it starting immediately. I am asking you to just sit there and wait for me. Have you ever thought that perhaps the point of this life is bigger than your little American circles of concern. Have you recognized the critical moment in history that I have placed you. Are you aware right now that there are millions who haven't heard my name or had a decent meal. You know that mentally but let that thought drop down to your heart. You are concerned about your son and very well, you should. But don't assume 1) that I am not at work and 2) that their aren't other elements in this battle that must be fought that have little to do with you or him. I have other things to accomplish it the skirmish for his spiritual fate but I refuse to tell you what they are. Just trust me. By the way, I love you.

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You continue to share your journey with us and I, for one, feel honoured and blessed to see what God is doing in your life, to witness the enormity of His love. Blessings, Matt...many blessings.

[Matt]

Thanks so much for the encouragement.