demoralized about I.

i don't see anything going on there spiritually and he's totally not responsive to me about God. i am so weary of the fight and feel like God's not responding no matter what i pray. we've fought this battle for three years now...

Lord, i pray that you'll send someone to him.

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[Kevin. C.]

I. has two great fathers looking out for him. My prayer is for him to reconcile with both of them. Be proud of the love and support you've given; you're setting the example for I. when he's a father of his own. If more of my students had parents like you, my job would be much easier.

God Bless,

Kevin

[Matt Tullos]

Thanks Kevin. And thanks for your prayers...

[Wanda]

Do not grow weary in well doing. Do not let God down by giving up that which He has already began a good work in. Do not forget that He knows every hair on I's head, and yours too, for that matter, and it is His heart that breaks right alongside of yours, you are not alone. God is responding everytime you change your prayer, you get a little closer to His answer, to His will, even if you feel it is only you that is making the effort.
The battle belongs to the Lord, let Him fight it, as Jehoshpaht said in his prayer, "Lord, we do not know what to do, but our eyes are upon You." "Praise the Lord, for his mercy endures forever." His mercies are new each morning, everyday you have the ability, nay,the responsibility to bow before a Soverign God and offer your son, just as Abraham offered his Isaac. God never fails.
Prayers offered today for you, for I. and all your loved ones.
blessings
Wanda

[Matt]

Thanks for the encouragement, Wanda. It's great to have such prayer warriors alongside me. What great insight from scripture, too. I'll have to go back and read that passage tonight. God is using this situation to chisel away the bad stuff. But it is so painful and fearful. I feel like He's giving me a spiritual root canal. It's so difficult and my flesh is really showing. I see kids all the time who are on fire for God and who parents are far from God. I covet. I compare. I obsess. second guess. I don't understand. I don't know how. And all I can do is gut it up. Love God and love my son.