sounding too melancholy?

I guess I should brighten up my blog. Apparently I sound a little depressed- i'm not, Mom. after i've looked over what i've written over the past week it could be a little misleading. i've dealt with lots of weighty issues but i am feeling great. i've felt the need in preparation for celebrating the resurrection to go deeper and to try to make this the most powerful experience of my faith walk. and it really has been, so far.

So far I've made it three days into my vow. i take vows pretty seriously. this is my m26:40 vow- based on Matthew 26:40

Then he returned to his disciples and found them sleeping. “Could you men not keep watch with me for one hour?” he asked Peter.

tonight i hope to do something a little different with my vow. i'm hoping to blog my hour of prayer- probably around 9 tonight. Each evening i have a strong feeling of excitement as i approach the hour. Lord, help me keep watch.

i will cetainly not do this every night because

1) i can't type as fast as i can pray
2) i don't want to be cast in the same crowd of those mentioned by Jesus when He said:

“And when you pray, do not be like the hypocrites, for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and on the street corners to be seen by men. I tell you the truth, they have received their reward in full. But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.

Matthew 6:5-6