more reflection on this season

the casting down of idols in my life has made me more deeply aware of my pain. idols (those things that rob us of worship) are usually an attempt to salve our personal wounds. What is happening in my life (the only life of which i can honestly speak) is an understanding of pain. who wants to feel pain? certainly not me. i would rather find a short-cut or a painkiller than to deal with the unsightly, in some cases, humiliating existence of personal pain and despair. personally, in the flesh, i would rather find a quick fix. something akin to taking an aspirin for a tumor.

but now i have been called into the office of a Holy Surgeon he is not asking me to do the surgery. he is simple asking me to lay still and trust my life in His hands. He is not shocked at the X-Rays. he is not condemning me for being in this condition. he's seen this diagnosis all too often. he calls me to sign the forms, undress, and rest.

i am counting backward from 20 slowly.

Lord Jesus, Son of God have Mercy.

Comments

[Wanda Cramer]

Speaking of the Holy Surgeon, I am grateful to the surgeon for allowing my husband to remain with me for a little while longer. After a year and a half battle with infections, colon surgery, more infections, and finally clear and on the mend, my husband awakened a a couple of weeks ago with chest pains. We contacted our Doctor, got to the Cardiologist by 10 am;by noon he was in the hospital to undergo a angiogram and by 5 pm he was scehduled for emergency bypass heart surgery. Initially for a double bypass, he ended up with a triple, and while in recovery had a heart attack. Thankfully, graciously, Almighty God had other plans for him and he is doing well. It may mean I cannot attend the Writer's Conference in April, but I am thankful that I have a husband to stay home to care for. The Great Physician was at work to perform heart surgery in a real physical way but while in the hospital, Tom witnessed to every nurse, every orderly and every Doctor. WE pray for a harvest of eternal heart surgeon on those who heard the Word. God is good. Amen and Amen.

Blessings!
Wanda

[matt tullos]

I had no idea. Thanks for the update. I admire the faith of Tom. I'll pray for him tonight and thank God for this incredible story. Bless you both!