tough day

a day when i begin to feel less validated. It's a awful desire from hell- this validation issue. (i must preach to myself that human validation isn't on God's top ten list for me.) There have been a few unbloggable things that I've experienced that have brought me to a place of questioning. What's my role? (self: see hard copy journal) Is my work done with purity of motive? Why am I here? Will the sound and fury of the day lead to something God can use? and so forth.

today's word for me come from St. Paul:

Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves.

Eugene Peterson says it like this

Don't push your way to the front; don't sweet-talk your way to the top. Put yourself aside, and help others get ahead.

Lord, give me the heart of a child today and the wisdom of an elder.