beware-obsessive rambling ahead
Friday, November 26, 2004 at 11:47PM I can do little more than celebrate and reflect today. It's been a different kind of day today. a lazy day of forced stillness. i left the apartment only once. i worked on this new site- which gave me a chance to reflect over the past 15 months of blogging. I've relived some exciting, painful, passionate, and joyful moments. Lord, You have been faithful and i realize that my weaknesses are ever before me. I cry out for you to parent my children and give them a vision of Christ. I fail the test of parenting in a variety of subtle categories. They are Yours Lord, just as i am.
I am reminded of the friends i have made. (here comes the obsessing again-but it's late and i don't care) i need to be a better friend to my friends. i spend so much time fearing that i will let them down and wondering why they hang around. i am more comfortable in the utility role. why is that, Lord?
Lord, are You going to do with me?
An old Steve Camp song comes to mind:
Oh God why is Your peace so hard to find? And the answer to the questions that haunt my mind. Oh Lord, Your ways are not like mine
And it pounds like thunder within in my breast... all the anger of my humanness. And though I call You Lord I must confess, I'm a stranger to Your holiness, a stranger to Your holiness. ::stranger to holiness: steve camp::
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